"Dear Diary, END
The baby is now Four months old.
He is a charming boy, sweet and quite. Doesn’t bother me much.
Occasionally he has his bad days, and then I have to be on my toes. Otherwise he is an adorable darling whom I love to bits.
The girls are in their crazy spirits as usual.
In their own world of play and games
Recently they had their sports day. It was exhilarating watching them participate and the icing of the cake being seeing them win. Praise is to the Almighty.
Well, what to say...
We hardly have time for each other. I only get to see him from far. He is always on rush and me too.
Me with the baby, cooking, cleaning, washing and all other things.
He with his work, the phone calls, meetings and other countless stuff. We always seem to talk only about bills, fees and how the business is faring.
There is no time or even the situation for casual relaxed chit chat. We have no choice, we have four kids now, so we have to be on our toes always, be it at home or work.
Trying to make the ends meet.
Sometimes amidst all this rush, I sneak a glance at him. His beard is untrimmed, there are dark circles and bags underneath his eyes, and even then he is looking as handsome as ever.
Can you believe, we even sleep separate!
We have no other choice? The girls want to sleep with him and I have the baby to take care of.
So, it’s a better arrangement. Good in a way as it allows me to switch on the light and sleep, something which he detests!
But, what I really miss ..is,is a hug.
Yes, we don't even have that!
Of course we have not taken into celibacy or anything of that sort.
But I am talking about a hug here.
The one which is done in sheer warmth and love.
At night, when I hear him snoring away his worries from the other room. I sometimes go back to the times when it was only him and me.
Our long Car rides together, our rainy holidays at the back waters, our quite weekends together,when we do nothing, but read books, talk, eat and yes hug..
I hate to say this but it’s not only the lack of time, but our relationship has been hit by the times and needs of life.
When I watch a Romantic movie, tears drops from my eyes. As I remember the love and passion we had for each other.
What can I do? But make a little prayer to ignite that spark in us again and be able to hug with warmth and pure love.
It’s not that I haven't made attempts...
I do try to catch a hug with him, when he is sitting and doing some work. But that results in a loud uproar by the Girls, so I discontinued that.
And at night, we are too sleepy and tired, and he is surrounded by the kids in the bed, to snuggle a hug in an already space less cot then is not very appealing.
But you know what, I think, I shall try that today, tonight. No matter how late it is, or how sleepy I am, I will go and snuggle myself near him. And hug him tight and forget all the worries and cares of this World..
Oh!I completely forgot! Our Apartments clerk had come today. Two months Maintenance rent is due, he said!
I ll go now,have to call Amin..