You are Not Allowed to Fall in Love
by Ranjana Tripathi
(Ahmedabad, Gujarat, India)
I grew up with a principle to ***
not to fall in love,
Falling in Love and being in love
is carnage the time and energy.
And I married without experiencing
the emotion of being in love.
Social expectations and errands
forced on me at an early age.
Hear I was still waiting for a
Lovely romantic movies, stories and songs
would bring tears, and secret desires.
And one fine day unexpected meeting
and my heart was lost.
Scared and in fear I hid my feelings to myself
I remembered 'Oh!! I am not allowed to love.'
Heart and head was in conflict,
Age and time was in disagreement,
Relations and expectations were in stake,
The only thing that was dying to fall
in love was my soul
The cry was not heard by anyone
and even not by me
I was happy in his presence;
I loved his care and concern,
I was smitten by his expressions.
My heart beat was loud in his presence and
I would secretly crave for a small kiss,
Wild imagination of holding hands
and listening songs,
Walking with him and escaping together
to a beautiful world.
I was in my imaginative world
and cherishing the moments
when I turned back to see my child
with an innocent smile.
And again reality conquered
my deepest imagination and desire
And mind whispered,
“You are not allowed to fall in Love”.